I’m bringing back a few oldie but goodie posts spread out over this week and next as I am finding myself preoccupied and unable to write. Seth’s heart procedure is on Tuesday, January 28th. I would appreciate your prayers for him and for Neal and I (and all the family coming in) as we wait patiently throughout the process. I trust. I’ve told you my fears and I’m ‘doing it afraid’ but above all I trust.
The prayer below is one I found when I was a sophomore in college at SFASU and it was folded up laying on a table in the library. I had overcome one of the most trying years of my life at the time, having turned in my rapist to the police he stalked and threatened me up to the Grand Jury hearing. By this time I’d lived through it but felt like I would never be able to find true love and then I found this letter:
“Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone – to have a deep soul relationship with another; to be loved thoroughly and exclusively; but God, to a Christian, says:
“No, not until you’re satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone; with giving yourself totally and unreservedly to me; to having an intensely personal relationship with me alone; discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be planned for you.
You will never be united with another until you are united with Me – exclusive of anyone or anything else, exclusive of any other desires or longings. I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing, one that you cannot imagine. I want you to have the best. Please allow me to bring it to you.
You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things.
Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I Am.
Keep listening and learning the things I tell you.
You just wait. That’s all. Don’t be anxious; don’t worry. Don’t look around at the things that others have gotten or that I’ve given them. Don’t look at the things you think you want. You just keep looking off and away up to Me, or you’ll miss what I want to show you. And then, when you’re ready, I’ll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any you would ever dream of.
You see, until you are ready, and until the one I have for you is ready (for I am working even at this moment to have both of you ready at the same time), until you are both satisfied and exclusively with Me and the life I prepared for you, you won’t be able to experience the love that exemplifies your relationship with Me, and thus the perfect love.
And, dear one, I want you to see, in the flesh, a picture of your everlasting union of beauty, perfection and love that I offer you with Myself. Know that I love you utterly. I AM. Believe it and be satisfied.”
– Author Unknown –
I held on to this prayer for quite some time, reading through it at times wishing it could be true, other times praying it to fruition. I overlooked the ‘both satisfied and exclusively with Me and the life I prepared for you,” part but God gave me my gift anyway. The rough part was us ‘growing and becoming ‘ready’ while we were already together. 😉 It was a bumpy road but Neal and I both found our love in God, exclusively with God and then our eyes were finally opened to the true love we had in one another.
If you are lonely and this prayer affects you in some way, put your trust in the Lord. Find satisfaction in Him and soon your eyes will be opened to the abundance of love around you.